Dazed and Amused

I just read some of my older post from last week. Its funny how fast things can change. One minute your up the next your down. Frankly I though this universe owed me a break for what I've been dealing with. I was content to patiently wait for it too. I guess I didn't have to wait long. Its been a long time since I have been able to genuinely smile. I have found myself again and am finally finding that sense of inner peace I have been missing.

It does help to know that I had some friends help me along the way. Some of them are old friends, some will one day become old friends, some gave it there all to help and others helped by the simplest of conversations. There has even been one special person who in the short time I have known him has no idea of the impact he's had on me. The best part is that I think I have had an impact on him too.

While weeks ago I knew my life would be filled with possibilities and opportunities, I know now that it is a sure thing. A lot of things have changed in my life recently so much so that I find it hard to believe that I was so lost. The one thing that I do know is that I am me again, complete and whole. Just as it should be. That loss of identity is no longer a concern for I have remembered who I am and what I want from life and myself. As long as I remember to stay true to that I won't ever be that lost again.

Resonance

There can be no better affirmation of my recent metamorphosis than the last 24 hours. To say that they have been surreal does no justice to the sheer joy I feel, while to describe it in any real sense limits the elation I have. I once said I would keep you informed of any major developments and this would certainly qualify. I still do not know what the future holds but what good is living if you can't feel alive. During the past few days I have felt more alive than I have been in a long time. A co-worker of mine once told me of a theory of resonance. She said that people can get along at basic level, but every now and then some one can come along that you can connect to at many levels; so much so that the connection seems to resonate. That connection does not have to be romantic, but that is the connection of what I speak currently.

While the future remains a mystery to all, I can only hope to continue to live and make the best of it by making these memories.

48 Hours

I know I'm well into my 48 hours of freedom; that is otherwise known as the weekend. What can I say I'm lazy today. I wonder what this weekend will bring, I have some plans for later today. Not quite sure what they are maybe a movie or something. I know eventually laundry will factor into it.

I'll make this quick.

I have a lot of work today but I wanted to get these ideas down before I lost them.

Recently I have been realizing just how connected everything is. How every experience you have had can be connected to the present. How choices made years ago can affect the course of a night today. What the hell am I talking about? Well I had plans to go out last night. Plans that I was looking forward to all week. However as the day went on enough things had happened to put me in a sour mood for the evening. That is until I got a random call out of the blue from a friend. Not that it was completely unexpected we talk a few times a week so its not like it was completely odd. It just happened to be the timing. He happens to be my best friend and despite the fact that he had no knowledge of the fact that I needed to take to him he gave me call.

No earth shattering revelations were discussed but it was good to talk to him and it put me back into the right frame of mind I needed so that I could enjoy myself. It was a great night. In my mind it illustrated that everything happens for a reason, and if you treat people right and surround yourself with good friends it all comes back to help you in the end.

Enough pearly drops of wisdom for now. I'll talk to you all later.

Fini

Well yesterday I completed the move. Today I get to celebrate with someone. I'll let you know more about that at another time though. So my commute to work is super simple and my roommate seems very laid back which is cool. I have to admit I haven't been in a real social mood lately as you all could plainly see. So I'm looking forward to the weekend and doing something. I don't know what but I want to do something fun. I also set a date to go to Mohegan Sun with my mother. She wants to go down on a random Tuesday for some deal she gets off the morning buffet. It should be fun if not a little random. I have plenty of time so I might as well take it.

The next travel plans that I know of are in February when I head off to Vegas for work. It should be fun but that's still 6 months off into the future. I should plan to do something sooner. I thought about maybe visiting Seattle and since I'm by myself and no longer have to worry about scheduling time it should be easy. I just need to come up with the funds for the adventure. I would like to do it in October but I have a wedding to go to then at the beginning and the friend that I would visit there will be over here. Maybe I'll try to do something in September, I've had a desire to head down to NYC for a long weekend so I just may do that instead, or as well. What can I say the traveling bug has hit me.


Anyways off to the city tonight I'll talk to you all tomorrow.